Our Errett Love was born on September 16, 2013 at 3:04pm. She weighed 7 lbs 9 oz and was 20 inches long! Overwhelmed by God’s blessing! It was such a surreal feeling to hold our beautiful healthy baby girl…so perfectly made….instantly in love with a stranger…I held her, not yet knowing her personality…all her actions being selfish..what SHE needs, when SHE needs it. Loving her not because we share DNA, but because she was given to me and called mine. I delight in her…her every yawn…every blink…every sigh…every smile! I would give my life for her…but I would not give her life for anyone. I have been living in this more palpable understanding of God’s love for me. He loves me, not because of anything I’ve done, but because I am His. He would not only give His life for me, but He gave His SON’S life for me. Unimaginable…completely humbling.
Our sweet girl is growing so fast and we are settling in as a family of three…however normalcy..or at least our new version of it is still a while away. During labor, I irritated my femoral nerve and have been having trouble walking and moving my left leg. I fell once (not while holding Errett) but I am still too nervous to carry her anywhere! We do think that my nerve is improving and I am praying for strength and for patience during this time of waiting for it to heal.
Waiting is life…life is waiting. There is always something…waiting to get married…waiting to get pregnant…waiting to give birth…waiting to meet our little one(s) who are waiting across an ocean for their family…waiting for God’s return…waiting…waiting. Waiting is hard…exciting…exhausting…thrilling…hoping…changing. God does something…something huge…transforming…during the wait. He breaks me, shapes me, pulls me close and changes me into a closer reflection of Him. I am learning to not only live in the wait, but embrace the wait…truly love the wait…it is where He meets me…it is where I am alive…looking forward while enjoying the now…all at the same time.
We have been number 19 on our agency’s wait list for the past two months while court has been closed. We are having a huge fundraiser at the end of November…if you want more info, let me know! Pray that we will raise enough to be fully funded for the remaining expenses. So excited!!